Hello Sweeties! I'm currently very sick and caused my whole body full of rashes ( face swollen) I wanna watch Johnny English but how do I go out without people looking at me like a monster!! Fuck my life.
Mom birthday simple celebration at aunt house on the 5th of sep. Steamboat and Greetea cake!
Small but happy little family <3
Both my mom and aunt so pretty! mom so sweet that she wore the shirt that aunt bought for her that day.
My cute mommy!
Spent Mid Autumn festival with loves one<3
Accompanied Joanne to bring her baby Kyler to bb spa beginning of sep. Kyler is mad cute, I swear!
Had a yummy laksa meal and had a warming day.
Ahhh by posting these picture made me miss him nw. Teng Teng kuai kuai zhang da~
Went Batam with Jacob on the 17th of sep.No much picture cos my camera spoilt =( Gonna get a new one when I got the money, *cries and Iphone quality sucks..
The 2d1n trip was amazing ! First time in my life that I put fireworks myself. With free return tickets, hotel accommodation , seafood lunch with crabs, prawns, sotong, fish , gong gong, clams. free massage, free hotel breakfast buffet which only cost $68 per pax.
Love it! and thanks to jon made my trip even more worthwhile!!
Hi Journal, it's been long since I've come to this little space of mine. This week had been a total depressing week. Life's gone, people cry, people lying in the hospital, people trying to accept the facts that never want to face. I guess we should learn to love ourselves more, learn to give love and to be loved.
Life is way too fragile, yes I know. I've know this long time ago. Since my dad is gone, mom is sick & when I'm fallen with sickness, keep admitting to the hospital I know life is fragile. But we don't know how it feels till we lost someone.
I'm here stoning to wait for Jacob to wake up, sleeping like a log. So I played with his web-cam and stuffs. Life had been stressing me out badly recently. Many things to focus on but too little time given.
I'm still looking forward to batam trip on sep and taiwan trip on oct ( leaving jacob for 5 days is stressing me out ).
Now I've used back normal black contact lenses which is only 14.0 in diameter. I feel so shitty everyday but I guess I just have to accept the look that I have. I'm tired of trying to be pretty or trying to hide my own self and to show what people love, at times I really wonder. why do I have to try so hard just to get a sentence like 'oh you look good today" from people. It will make me happy but It will make me feel pathetic as well,
Just let it be, even If I'm ugly or whole body and face full of rashes I still got Jacob to love me and I love him.
Feeling broken, barely holding on. But there's still something so strong, somewhere inside me. And I am down but i'll get up again , don't count me out just so fast yet.
I've been brought down to my knees and I've been pushed , way past the point of breaking but I can take it , I'll be back , back on my feet. This is far from over , you haven't seen the last of me.
They can say that , that I won't stay around but I gonna stand on my own ground . You're not gonna stop me, you don't know me. You don't know who I am. There will be no fade out, this is not the end. I'M DOWN NOW BUT I'LL BE STANDING TALL AGAIN. Times are hard but I was built tough. I gonna show you all what I am made of.
Hello diary, I'm still alive and kicking around. Happy cny? nah, I'm not a bit of happy at all. Now i'm still waiting for my dearest J to be back to Singapore. I hate waiting. That kind of feeling sucks. My cousin is back to Singapore and gave everyone a shocked. No one knows! So I decided to go Malaysia despite on my very very bad and horrible rash that day. It turn out that everyone was present that day. It's like some of them always go overseas.
I was so upset on cny eve where everyone is having reunion dinner. This feeling burges me so badly every year. I hate being alone on festival occasion, it makes me feel so pathetic. even my sister went of for movie on that day. people going "he pian" , people going powerhouse , people happily eating and gamble. even J don't understand how I'm feeling . IT'S JUST SO FUCKING SUCKS TO BE ME.
no one will understand.
I said i will find a job after cny, now my rashes is all back. what now? WHAT?
And I realise I really dont have a friend. all the people around me is just a name "friend" none of them carries the meaning of it.
This will be a short post before 2010 ends, In 2010 basically I've did nothing at all. My life was so terribly jam-ed, probably the worst year ever . From short bob to long hair, from long fringe to bangs from bang to long and now it's short again. We're all changing every single day. I seriously hope that 2011 will be a better year for me and my family and everyone around me and I also hope that I will recover one of the day next year.
Sometimes I really think we do we even live for, I'm not trying to be some emotion bitch but things really got me down. When we are all perfectly fine and good. We don't want to lose any. When we are down with nothing we tried to hard to get the smallest things back.
I didn't want to compare my life with others but all I can do is to listen and see how good people life is. I can't do anything but to compare. Life, so unfair. If i were to complain about my life. Seriously I don't even know where to start.
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